Well... I figure I should actually fill everyone in one whats going on in my life. I'd rather not have any comments, I don't really need sympathy, but just to let you guys know Ben and I broke up friday morning. Kinda mutual, kinda not. I was going to end it b/c he was being hot and cold and I didn't feel I deserved it. However, apon arriving, I realized how happy he made me, so I couldn't do it, but after an hour of talking he said part of him wanted to be with me, part didn't, so he decided to just stop. Sucks, alot. we still talk, which I'm not sure how I feel about.... its crazy how one person can cause so many great emotions, and then so much pain. I'm ok though. I'm Dez. Just... hurting for a little while.