Fuck Him

I'd liek to start this post by saying, "Fuck him"

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I'm emotional? Well, Yes, I happen to be emotional. In the sense that I cry probably the most, however I do not appreciate the irony of one of the most emotional, moody boy I have ever met telling me this. He was annoyed with me THursday b/c I was being moody? FUck him, I didn't even talk to him, approach him, nothing, HE attacked ME!!! But I'm the emotional one, of course, stupid me.

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Ya, I'm still in love with you you fucking jerk, deal with it its your fault. You were the one who fell for me first, you were the one who said "thast one thing I have a hard time saying, and won't say unless I absolutly mean it, is "I love you" " and then what, 2 weeks later, "Dezeray... I love you" or how about hte constant "See... its things like this that show we're going to be together for a long time" "See, everyone around us can see we're going to be together for a long time" I was the one who didn't want a relationship, I was the one who said "Dude... we haven't been together that long, isnt' this going a little fast?" And then fuck me, I fell hard for you. And then... you left, for no good reason, a month later told me you were still in love with me but had your own demons to fight, but I'M THE FUCKING EMOTIONAL ONE?!?!??!!??! FUCK YOU!

It doesn't even matter b/c the person I fell in love with was so full of passion, drive and ambition. But he doesn't exist. November you were gunna quit Denny's, get a job at Moxies... ope, that never happened. How many tatoos have you had drawn up? Yet none of them are on your body... Going to school in January? You changed your mind to start a business instead, and thats not going to happen either. Going tree planting, moving back to Vancouver? Ya, I'll fuckin believe it when I see it.

Also, quit fucking messing with me. Everyonce in a while that little lie pops up again, and its almost like you care about me. It seems like you let your gaurd down and your true feeligns come forward...

So untill you can figure yourself out, and be a decent person, leave me the fuck alone. I hate you, I hate what you've done to me, I hate the amount of pain you've caused me, and cause me everytime I see you. My loving you is getting in the way? OF WHAT?!?!? THere is nothign, and its not you I love, it was an idea, a lie, a fleeting glimpse that turned out to be an illusion.

One day I hope you realize what you lost, and how badly you fucked up. Until then, fuck you.