Boot camp!

Ok, sorry this took a while guys, sales school is intense! I'm generally super three at the end of the day, plus i'm at school about fourteen hours a day, straight work and study. Wow, which ones of you thought i was capable of studying so hardcore? Ok, i guess we all knew, its just a matter of motivation. I already notice a difference in myself, changeing, growing, losing weight, its awesome, seriously, some of you might not recognize of when i return, physically or emotionally. I've already gained some emotion control, only minorly crying twice, both at the end of the day, neither time a big deal at all. K, nic no, i didn't take pictures, there was no chance, but i'll set that right before coming home. I'll write an e-mail and better post later, but comment here or write e-mails or text bc i get them all on my phone in before or after sales school and i love getting them. Please keep them happy and positive. Love you all and loving it here, dez

Kamakazie oranges

Ok, the title was for my lil sister, and the inspiration was about ten mins ago. I opened the back door of james's car, and WHAM! oranges everywhere... It was an intentional hit, and i am shaken, but i am tough! So we're only about an hour from nashville, but we're staying wherever it is we are because we're tired and can't get our real hotel till tomorrow afternoon anyways. So no speeding tickets today, but we did get seperated somehow... The other car was speeding and we didn't see the hurry so we took our time, then their car over heated, but i somehow passed them, and now we're waiting for them to finish eatin and come up. Today was so feast or famin for me... They decided we should hit the next town for breakfast since our groceries were depleted, but it wasn't till like ten thirty till we ate, them i over ate, them didn't eat much again till i complained enough viet james stopped so i could eat again, and once again over ate. But i'm full and happy. Me and the two guys drove together today, so we had et

Blah... Mobile doesn't give you enough room to post... Anyways me and the guys wrote funny notes on paper to hit on other cars, was tres fun. Drove through kansas city... Both of them... Lol, theres one in the state of kansas, then ten mins later, just over the missouri border is a larger kansas city, lol. Gorgeous place though... Can't remember which, but the whole area was gorgeous. Chalked up another two states, we're now in kentucky. Anyways, i'm gunna post this and try and nab a laptop ve e-mail everyone!

Toto... We're in kansas

Yay... I finally got internet again! I couldn't post last night, made me sad. Well, made it through another three states, which makes a total of seven states in two days. We got split up from the other car right off the bat. So unlike them, we got to go through the wonderful state of wyoming where if you're from outa state, you have to pay speeding tickets on the spot. If you are unable to hand over the cash, you win a trip to jail!! Yay! Of course we learned this fifteen minutes after the other car learned that in utah, tickets are a lot more expensive, but you can pay later. Them the other car, went against our advice, and learned not six hours later that in the state of colorado if you go over one hundred miles per hour, you go straight to jail for four days,do NOT pass go, do NOT collect two hundred dollars. They did however manage to lie their way outa that one, and we had the cash on hand. So that was the main excitement of yesterday.

love you all, write more later.

Doom... Doom... Doom... Go now.

Blah... So we made it to salt lake city, and are now looking for a hotel. We drove for 14 1/2 hours, i drove at least nine of that. Ate a whole bag of beef jerky to myself also. It was so cool to see re much of the states, i only slept for twenty mins so i got to see most of it. Just outside seattle is so pretty, so many trees, very nice. So apparently i've good through four states today! Oh, there was a car completly engulfed in flames on the freeway, that was intense. My parents would be so proud of me, i listened to a motivational speaker today, and actually paid attention, it was o cd and james said he might speak at training. I'm so excited, i'm going to have a rocking summer, and i'm so going to jamaica! (sizzler trip you who for selling a certain amount of books) ok time to e-mail parents, hugs to all!

Hell bent and nashville bound

Wow... I just wrote a huge post about airplanes being like elevators and my dislike for them and horrible expensive shoes being to small and it disappeared... Nice. Also, rode the sky train today, YAY! Must sleep now

Cause i'm leaving, in a jet plane. Don't know when i'll be back again...

Well, i sit here waiting to board my plane, and i realize i haven't updated my blog in quite some time. Wow, i'm actually leaving to places i've never been... I'm starting an adventure, of course this adventure is going to be a lot of hard work, but thats all i really know how to spend a summer. Saying goodbye to my parents really sucked... We've gone everywhere together, and i've never been away from them for more than ten days. Startin to feel all growed up. And excited, and nervous, and ill... Oh wait, THAT would be hose's fault! Good ol' quirbo. Seriously, airports are a range of emotions... People being reunited, people parting sometimes for a lil while sometimes for longer or ever... Boarding is starting.

Deviant!!

Yaaayy..... after checking out Pauls gallery so often, I decided I want a place I can show off my pictures, so here it is!!

http://dezdez.deviantart.com/

yaaayyyyyyyy........ I doubt I'll update often, it'll be relevant to me taking/developing/scanning photos, AND i have to take some good ones, but I'll throw some old ones up to start :D

New List

Wow.... I've actually gotten alot of the stuff on my list done, so I"ll comprise a new list.

Clean room <-Wasn't that the first thing on the last list...
Cash in coinage
Pay back father
Fill Cole's car and return
"Landscaping" of yard
Study for marketing
Pack
Buy luggage
Fix Hair <- You'd never know my mother was a hairdresser...
Get new debit card
Get international student card
Get stuff Rebecca left at her house
Say last goodbye's to close friends

Missing Keys?

Well.... for anyone who was here last night, and reads my blog, I found a set of keys. Its got a lanyard, black with Canadian flags on it. A gold bottle opener, and a blue carribean clip. It has an ignition key for a GM, and other assorted keys... let me know if they're yours, or if you think you know whos they are, so I can return them before my departure.

Random points of today

I hate accounting...
i found my missing negatives
i found my birth certificate... Was actually unaware it was missing
i hate accounting
i picked up my tack today
i got the horses their needles today, i'll stab them tomorrow
tomorrow i have to say a lot of sad goodbyes
i'm running out of time before i leave
oh oh! Bought cool tea pot and tea today
had nice lunch with jen
fought with computers till i cried
have i mentioned i hate accounting?

Random Song quotes to express feelings.

I can't unthink about you
I can't unfeel your touch
I can't unhear all the words
Unsay all the things
That used to mean so much
I wish I could unremember
Everything my heart's been through
And finding out it's impossible to do
Oh, it's no use
I can't unlove you
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So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go
'Cause I'm leaving on a jet plane
I don't know when I'll be back again
Oh, babe, I hate to go
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Saying goodbye is a gap in forever,
on a Road to tomorrow, in a time of cold weather.
Saying goodbye, is only a mile.
Saying goodbye, is just for a while.
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Bye bye love, I'll catch you later
Got a lead foot down on my accelerator
and the rearview mirror torn off
I ain't never lookin' back.
And that's a fact.
I've tried all I can imagine
I've begged and pleaded in true lover's fashion
I've got pride, I'm takin' it for a ride
Bye bye, bye bye my baby, bye bye
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Who needs sleep?
(well you’re never gonna get it)
Who needs sleep?
(tell me what’s that for)
Who needs sleep?
(be happy with what you’re getting
There’s a guy who’s been awake
Since the second world war)
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Fast food

If we are what we eat, then I'm fast cheap and easy.

So today kinda started bad. First off, I hope Mac understands how hard it was for me to get outa bed at 8:15 in the am. Anyways, Mac left for Vanvcouver today, so I drove him to the airport.... it really sucked saying goodbye to him early, but I'm glad I got to see him off. It's weird, I don't know how he came to mean so much to me, he's really just the short late night cook I joked around with. Then I started driving him home every morning, made him listen to country at work, made him dance with me at the bar, he always made me drive him around for food at random hours, one day after a shitty night at work, I sat in my car and my eyes started to well up, and he looked at me and said "if you cry, i'm running back into Denny's, and i'll walk home." So i drove to his house and said "Get out so i can cry..." was really funny, and after me and Garfield got back from Vancouver, garfield went back to being an ass, and we got into a huge fight, and I stormed out of Dennys, telling Mac we were leaving... got to the car, and realized I was going to cry, so I let Mac in and went for a walk... drove him home and when we got there, I started to cry again, and he said it was ok, and gave me a huge hug... meant so much for me. Ha ha... this one time he was drunk, and told me I wasn't htat heartbroken that Garfield had broken up with me... that I was ok. He was at Denny's when I found out I was going to Ontario, he stayed with me till I calmed down, took like an hour break hugged me when I cried... OH! Speaking of crying... all my funny stories with Mac involve me crying. Way back when I was dating Mike, work kinda sucked, and i was a lil emotional and complaining about something and just as I burst into tears Mac say's "what'er you gunna do, cry about it?" THEN he looked at me... was soo funny, he felt so bad. Anyways, I'm rambling, what I'm trying to say, is I'm really gunna miss that kid alot, even tho he thinks I'm a reckless driver and makes me take him to drive thrus at all hours of hte night, he's really been there for me when I needed him...

I leave in 5 days... let us review my "list"

Bring tack home <-have yet to do that... shit shit shit
Buy plane ticket <-Done this morning
Chiropractor <-did that once, should do it again
Clean room <- Ah ha ha ha.... right
Clean car <- I DID THAT I DID THAT!!
Dentist <- Unfortunatly did that, and get to go back once I return...
Dr <- who was I really kidding?
Fix hair <-this weekend maybe?
Finish school <-ok, can I delay this one for another week?
Going away party <-this friday
Shopping for things <-supposed to do that today
Quit Dennys <- HA HA!! Suckers... done and done
Vaccinations for horse <-Shit... do I even have time for this one...

Ok, i hope some of you noticed and appreciated the fact taht that is in alphabetical order :D However, i've managed to not do alot of stuff on that list, and i leave in FIVE Days... blah, and here I am posting instead of doing h/w, but i'll get to taht. lol

So last night was my last night at Denny's, was kinda sad, kinda super happy. Did the major countdown by the minute all night. Annoyed the hell outa alot of ppl, was awesome!

Ok, i'll post this and continue with the h/w situation.

Oh, randomness, my hair is all in braids again! yay!

Ha ha... wow... my moms a lil upset, I don't think i've heard her say that someone/something can go fuck themselves that many times in one minute before...

Procrastinators unite... tomorrow.

Yay computers...

or not... so first off, it won't recognize the DVD i shove in it, so then Nic posts it up on the web for me so I can d/l it. Cool..... took a 1/2 an hour, got it d/l..... and my computer won't support it!!! but it'll play the audio... so currently, i'm going w/o body language and listening for my intrusive annoying voice... And seriously I sound like an alcoholic. Allow me to quote. "Living off whiskey and chocolate... sounds like my kinda time!!" "Orrrrr we could get drunk, sounds like my idea of 'coping' skills" "I think we should have 1 quart of whiskey per person..." "And Dez wants to get drunk, so." anyways...

I hate this... i've been procrastinating bad... not to do much. I've been socializing alot, and have this weird thing where I dont' want to be alone... very antiDez like... I stay up till all hours of the night, have troubles dragging out of bed. Am stressed to the nines, living off tea, and eating chocolate by the POUND... funny enough I'm sick, can't imagine why.

And seriously, when did I get this crazy, or have I always been this nuts? Today is my last shift at Denny's, i leave in 6 days, I house sit for 4 of those days, and I have 3 exams... is there TIME to sleep? Let alone pack, shop, have going away party, visit ppl, clean room, study, and get horses to the vet? Didn't think so..... however, I seem to have gone back into hermit mode, so maybe I'll accomplish more...

Other examples of procrastination, and proof women are masacists... who the HELL thought of waxing, and why do I keep trying?!?! decided a lil while ago, I should wax my armpits... why teh FUCK would anyone do that... seriously, didn't shave for a couple days, wore long sleeve shirts, today, grabbed a wax strip slapped it on... couldn't pull it 1/4 the way off without it hurting way to much. SO! Placed my hand on the wall so that all skin was taut, and something to hold on to... ripped wax strip off... blinding pain... literally... look at my underarm... still a patch of hair, AND its bruised... sonofabitch... never again... well, except I still had to do the other underarm, which turned out better, but after all this i STILL HAVE TO FREAKING SHAVE... anwyays, that was my personal yet horribly laugh at Dezeray's pain funny story.

Seriously... listening to myself talk is kinda depressing... I am useful in the fact I can help lighten things up since i'm CONSTANTLY making jokes... I listen very well, Like, Im a decent listener as far as "active listening goes" but man am I annoying... no wonder I'm going into hermit mode, I dislike myself, lol. Also, I go "mhmm" alot...

Blah.... I feel so weird emotionally and mentally right now... all discombobulated... i think it has to do with the leaving, and the lack of time before I leave and the stress of everything happening around me... however, today is my last shift at Denny's so that'll help a lil.

Ok, i've listened to the aduio of this video twice, time to start evaluating myself using more um.... professional terms than done here.

BLah...

BLah...

*sniffle* so.... I'm sick... ACHOOO!!! Not fun... i'm all super cold, then super hot and sweating. Slept in till like 2, watched Richie Rich with my dad, ate pineapple upside down cake, 2 bowls of fruit salad, and a rice krispie chocolate roll. Dad left for work, and now I"m on the computer... tis a really fasinating day today! I leave in 10 days. Am not ready at ALL... and this being sick is making it worse. I have a huge project due last thursday, that I seem only able to do at the boys apartment due to computer difficulties, but everytime i go to the apartment I get distracted.

I'd also like to say I'm a lil saddened that the blogging has majorly declined just before I leave... which is sad because it will most likely be the only way I cna keep up with everyone while I'm gone...

Weird... we have this calender that has "memory minders" aka stickers to "remind us" of appointments and such. There are 8 Dr stickers, and only 2 Chiroprators stickers... thats about 4 times to many Dr stickers for thsi family, and about 10X not enough chiropractor stickers....

YAY!! Its my song...

Yes I'm hellbent and Nashville bound, Whiskey bottles by the pound, 10 dyas to guitar town!!

Now the jailers got a daughter... and she's smiling back at me... says shes never been to Nashville.... and she's handed me the keys. Now I don't want no trouble man, but troubles what I"ve found, yes I'm hellbent and Nashville bound.

Blah, I work graveyards tonight, and then swing tomorrow whcih leaves little time for sleep, and cuts out easter with family.... not that I'm complaining, especially since I"m waking the boys up at 5 am to have easter! :D should be fun.

Blllaaaaaaahhhhhhh... i feel all hot and sweaty.... this is icky. Its sunny outside hto, maybe I'll go picture hunting. Or i could be responsible and get ready to go, or study for exams....... but photography sounds more fun!

If at first you don't succeed... part 2

If at first you don't succeed, take the tax loss.

If at first you don't succeed, lie, lie again.

If at first you don't succeed; you are running about average.

If at first you don't succeed, failure may be your style.

If at first you don't succeed, try, try again. Then quit. There's no point in being a damn fool about it.

If at first you don't succeed, destroy all evidence that you tried.

If at first you don't succeed...So much for hand-gliding.

If at first you don't succeed...click 'undo'.

If at first you don't succeed...Delegate and make it someone else's problem.

If at first you don't succeed...Change the rules.

If at first you don't succeed...See if the loser gets anything.

If at first you dont succee, try doing it the way Dez told you to! :P

Top 15 Favorite Country Songs

1. If I Can't Be Number One In Your Life, Then Number Two On You
   
2. If The Phone Don't Ring, You'll Know It's Me
   
3. How Can I Miss You If You Won't Go Away?
   
4. I Liked You Better Before I Got to Know You So Well
   
5. I Still Miss You Baby, But My Aim's Gettin' Better
   
6. I Wouldn't Take Her To A Dog Fight 'Cause I'm Afraid She'd Win
   
7. I'll Marry You Tomorrow But Let's Honeymoon Tonight
   
8. I'm So Miserable Without You It's Like You're still Here
   
9. If I Had Shot You When I Wanted To I'd Be Out Of Prison By Now
   
10. My Wife Ran Off With My Best Friend And I Sure Do Miss Him
    
11. She Got The Ring And I Got The Finger
    
12. You're The Reason Our Kids Are So Ugly
    
13. Her Teeth Was Stained But Her Heart Was Pure
    
14. She's Looking Better After Every Beer
    
15. I ain't Gone To Bed With An Ugly Woman, but I've Sure Woken Up With A Few

A Thinking Problem...

It started out innocently enough. I began to think at parties now and then to loosen up. Inevitably though, one thought led to another, and soon was more than just a social thinker. I began to think alone. "to relax," I told myself, but I knew it wasn't true.

Thinking became more and more important to me, and finally I was thinking all the time. I began to think on the job. I knew that thinking and employment don't mix, but I couldn't stop myself. I began to avoid friends at lunchtime so I could read Thoreau and Kafka. I would return to the office dizzied and confused, asking, "What is it exactly we are doing here?"

Things weren't going so great at home either. One evening I had turned off the TV and asked my wife about the meaning of life. She spent that night at her mother's.

I soon had a reputation as a heavy thinker. One day the boss called me in. He said, "Skippy, I like you, and it hurts me to say this, but your thinking has become a real problem. If you don't stop thinking on the job, you'll have to find another job." This gave me a lot to think about.
I came home early after my conversation with the boss. Honey," I confessed, "I've been thinking..."

"I know you've been thinking," she said, "and I want a divorce!"

"But Honey, surely it's not that serious."

"It is serious," she said, lower lip a quiver. "You think as much as a college professor, and college professors don't make any money, so if you keep on thinking we won't have any money!"

"That's a faulty syllogism," I said impatiently, and she began to cry. I'd had enough. "I'm going to the library," I snarled as I stomped out the door.

I headed for the library, in the mood for some Nietzsche, with NPR on the radio. I roared into the parking lot and ran up to the big glass doors...they didn't open. The library was closed. To this day, I believe that a Higher Power was looking out for me that night.

As I sank to the ground clawing at the unfeeling glass, whimpering for Zarathustra, a poster caught my eye. "Friend, is heavy thinking ruining your life?" it asked. You probably recognize that line. It comes from the standard Thinker's Anonymous poster.

Which is why I am what I am today: a recovering thinker. I never miss a TA meeting. At each meeting we watch a non-educational video; last week it was "Porky's." Then we share experiences about how we avoided thinking since the last meeting.

I still have my job, and things are a lot better at home. Life just seemed easier, somehow, as soon as I stopped thinking.

Soon, I will be able to vote Conservative.

Men...... can't live with em, can't bury em in the backyard without the neighbors noticing...

Men are like a deck of cards

A woman once said that a man is like a deck of cards ...
You need:

A Heart to love him
A Diamond to marry him,
A Club to smash his stupid head in, and
A Spade to bury the bastard.

Grrr...

I have a stupid kanker sore developing underneath my tongue AGAIN!!! So frustrating, and painful... That is all.

Peter Pan!!

This is a monologue from " 'Dentidy Crisis" by Christoper Durang... makes me happy!

Jane: Well a few days ago I woke up and I heard this voice saying "It wasn't enough"

[Summers: Did you recognize the voice?}

Not at first. But then it started to come back to me. When I was eight years old, someone brought me to a theatre with lots of other children. We had come to see a production of Peter Pan. And I remember something seemed wrong with whole production, odd things kept happening. Like when the children would fly, the ropes breaking and the actors would come thumping to ground an they'd have to be carried off by the stagehands. There seemed to be an unlimited supply of understudies to take the children's places, and then they'd fall to the ground. And then the crocodile that chases Captain Hook seemed to be a real crocodile, It wasn't an actor, and at one point it fell off the stage, crushing several children in the front row.

[Summers: What happened to the children?}

Several understudies came and took their places in the audience. And from scene to scene Wendy seemed to get fatter and fatter until finally by the second act she was immobile and had to be moved with a cart.

{Summer: Where does the voice fit in?}

The voice belonged to the actress playing peter pan. You remember how in the second act Tinkerbell drinks some poison that Peter's about to drink, in order to save him? And then Peter turns to the audience and he says that Tinkerbell's going to die because not enough people believe in fairies, but that if everybody in the audience claps real hard to show that they do believe in fairies, then maybe Tinkerbell won't die. and so then all the children started to clap. we clapped very hard and very long. my palms hurt and even started to bleed I clapped so hard. then suddenly the actress playing Peter Pan turned to the audience and she said, " that wasn't enough. You didn't clap hard enough. Tinkerbell's dead. " uh..well, and..and then everyone started to cry. The actress stalked offstage and refused to continue with the play, and they finally had to bring down the curtain. No one could see anything through all the tears, and the ushers had to come help the children up the aisles and out into the street. I don't think any of us were ever the same after that experience.

Try this again...

BLogger decided I had posted enough pictures for one day, so I couldn't finish... but let us try again, shall we?!

Aren't they..... um..... cute or something!??!

AHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!! (now thats a tongue I"D want to kiss...)

Awee........ look..... he's dancing!!

This Really isn't comfortable...

But this is!!!!

I always get the guys...

ANd to finish our slide show... this is all of us!!
Back row from left to right:

Heidi Pam Adam Ashley Kaylee Cole Nic Spencer.

Do I need to tell you who the freak lying in mid air is? Ok, thats me, Dezeray, and next to my elbow in front of Spencer, is Liberty!

I saw a squirrel....

Ok, so I didn't see a squirrel, much to everyones disapointment I know... but I did get some cool pictures!! Dont worry, I won't post all 60... just a few that are fun:D

Heidi and Adam, AND Spencer sitting in a tree... not a Heidi for long ;)

I know you can't see us... but me and Heidi are in that picture to!! We're camaflouged... pretty neat eh!?

Peek a boo!

My kinda valentine

Roses are red,
violets are blue,
sugar is sweet,
and so are you.

But the roses are wilting,
the violets are dead,
the sugar bowl's empty
and so is your head.

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Roses are red
Violets are blue
I'm schizophrenic
And so am I

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If only this one was true...

Roses are red, violets are blue...
I'm in love but not with you...
When we broke up you thought I cried
But all it was...Was another guy,
You told your friends that I was a trick,
I told mine that you had a weak dick...
I said I loved you
And you thought it was true,
But guess what baby?!
You got played too!!

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Roses are red,
Violets are blue,
I dont remember the rest,
So lets fuck!

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Knock knock?

Whos there?

Roses are red violets are

Roses are red violets are who?

Violets are blue!! not who...

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Omgoodness, I think I'm a lil bettter, jokes always mkae me smile, who knew ther ewere so many variations on the "roses are red" poem... some humourous quotes and I'll be good for bed!

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I told my psychiatrist that everyone hates me. He said I was being ridiculous - everyone hasn't met me yet.

I'm always amazed to hear of air crash victims so badly mutilated that they have to be identified by their dental records. What I can't understand is, if they don't know who you are, how do they know who your dentist is?

If toast always lands butter-side down, and cats always land on their feet, what happens if you strap toast on the back of a cat and drop it?

Sometimes I lie awake at night, and I ask, 'Where have I gone wrong?' Then a voice says to me, 'This is going to take more than one night.'

USA Today has come out with a new survey: Apparently three out of four people make up 75 percent of the population.

Now they show you how detergents take out bloodstains, a pretty violent image there. I think if you've got a T-shirt with a bloodstain all over it, maybe laundry isn't your biggest problem. Maybe you should get rid of the body before you do the wash.

Everywhere is within walking distance if you have the time.

Freudian Slip

A guy with a black eye boards a plane bound for Pittsburgh and sits down in his seat. He notices immediately that the guy next to him has a black eye, too.

He says to him, "Hey, now this is a coincidence, we both have black eyes! Do you mind if I ask how you got yours?"

The first guy answers, "Well, it just happened. It was a FREUDIAN SLIP. See, I was at the ticket counter, and this gorgeous blonde with the biggest breasts in the world was behind the counter. So, instead of saying, 'I'd like a ticket to Pittsburgh,' I said 'I'd like a picket to Tittsburgh!' Boy did she sock me one hard right in the eyeball!!"

The other guy answers, "Mine was a FREUDIAN SLIP, too! I was at the breakfast table, and I wanted to say to my wife, 'Dear, would you please pour me a bowl of Wheaties?' But I instead I accidentally said, 'You ruined my life, you fat ugly bitch!!!!!!'"

Nougat is the sugar equivalent of veal...

Ok........ my life has hit an all time low. Instead of doing h/w, studying, working on my summer job, or getting ready to leave for 4 months... I"m sitting here watching flash animations on the computer.... like strong bad, and albino black sheep and shit.... i feel saddened.

Now listening to BNL and drinking my evening Chamomile tea.

But today, we got subway, and ice cream, and went to the park and sit in the trees to make friends with the squirrels!! It was so much fun, i took 2 1/2 rolls of film... thats roughly 60 pictures... SIXTY PICTURES!!! Tres awesome, they'll be ready tomorrow after class... and.... thast about it. Talked to my mommy for a hwile, and I HSOULD be sleepign since I have school and work tomorrow... i really don't wanna go... like seriously, not at all.... plus I feel ill. VVERY ill... Jen S says I should stay home tomorrow...

Seriously my typing has gone for shit... I should post and leave

*shakes fist at Nic* You watched Memoirs of Agaisha w/o me :(

I don't wanna go to school...

This is bad... I think i've just accepted how far behind I am, and have decided my way of dealing with it is just aceing the final exams... however that would require studying for the exams or you know, at least going to class, and i seriously have no drive to do anything right now... I just want a week to myself... *sigh* i geuss thats what the drive to Nashville will be, except, totally not at all.... blah.

Ooh... thats a good idea, just wearing cut off overalls... hmm... possibilities.

I was going to type somehting, but now I've forgotten... *grumble grumble* I'm starving... I dont' think I've eaten today... and I seriously don't want to go to class... its all sunny and stuff outside... I think thats whats making this hardest, thats why I didn't go to class in grade 12, it was sunny outside!!

Maybe I'll go eat something, jump on the trampoline, and go to class... blah.

Idea!

Ok... between Nana, and Domino, I TOTALLY thikn I should cut my hair short..... thoughts?

Weird...

Ok, i'm not entirely certain how, or why that last post was posted... but it was... not of my doing... *twilight zone music*

I think it was Mel's mental powers...

OK! So, my day. Well... woke up SUPER angry... like, borderline out of control, no good reason, want to throw my cell phone, hit things, and yell for no apparent reason angry. Was actually scared to get outa bed b/c I had no idea what I would do. So instead I lied in bed for another couple hours, fell asleep again, and woke up happier. Did dishes, talked with Dad some more... made a chiropartor appointment,

went to Chiropractor... frightened him slightly. First off, pelvis entirely twisted... he did a few things to fix that. Put his hand on my mid back and went "wow... this is seriously messed up, here... here... here... here to... and here." Then he checked my neck, and I said, "oh btw, I've been getting headaches" and he was like... *sarcastically*"no..... really?!?!" he did THREE different adjustments on my neck alone... kinda frightening really. However, with the pelvis being not so twisted anymroe, its relieved pressure from my tailbone, and therefore, MUCH less pain. Very good!! Ha ha... i saw a Dr, just not the one you all wanted me to see. Now... some religious ppl go to confession to confess their sins. I however, go to a chiropractor... tis totally like confessing my sins and feeling guilty about the horrible things I do to my body...

"forgive me Larry, for my back is out. 2 weeks ago we all went crazy carpetting at midnight, and we fell and Ashley rode my head down the hill. Then I was wrestling Tiffany and cracked my head against the coffee table. Then I went haying and a board fell on my head and then shoulder, and I continued to lift heavy bales. I carry exceptionally heavy trays of food at work in one hand throwing my body out of balance. The other night I decided I could probably still do backhandsprings even tho I've been out of gymnastics for 5 years, and then later I wrestled with Adam... here's my $30, HEAL ME."

Well that was entertaining. Anwyays, after taht got a TOGO sandwhich from Denny's, went to the boys apartment in search of sunglasses... sat near window so I could have sun while eating my sandwhich. Went to work... did workish stuff... Tammy was there today, OMG, I was so happy... and for the record, today was the first day in a long time I DIDN"T storm around thinking about how much I hated my job... in fact it was enjoyable... Tammy has htis habit of making me want to do a good job, and happy to be there and be apart of "team D" *gag* but its true... she is the best manager ever, and if she was at PG Denny's more often when I got back I would seriously consider reapplying... she knew I was quiting, asked me all about my new job, when she heard that I was staying for an extra week, she thanked me and told me how wonderful that was of me... made me feel like a valued employee, fuck I love her! lol.

Anwyays, on 1/2 hour break, made Cole walk down and see me, and we went for a walk... it was really nice... sunshine, warmth, EXCERSIZE... very cool.

Finished work, dropped by Ashleys for a lil while, came home, downed a cup of Chamomile tea, read everyones blog, and here I am! About to go to bed myself, BEFORE 2 am for once, WOO HOO, hopefully I'll get some stuff accomplished tomorrow... yay me.

I haven't posted quotes in a while, so enjoy...

I've never been quarantined. But the more I look around the more I think it might not be a bad idea.

If all the world is a stage, where is the audience sitting?

Live and let live, that's what I say. Anyone who can't understand that should be killed. It's a simple philosophy, but it's always worked well in our family.

Men are from Earth, women are from Earth. Deal with it

When you look at the average American you realize there's nothing nature enjoys more than a good joke.

Ah, to be a bird. To fly the skies, sing my song, and best of all occasionally peck someone’s eyes out.

Death is caused by swallowing small amounts of saliva over a long period of time.

Swimming is not a sport, swimming is a way to keep from drowning! That's just common sense!

A lot of these people who keep a gun at home for safety are the same ones who refuse to wear a seat belt.

Religion easily—has the best bullshit story of all time. Think about it. Religion has convinced people that there's an invisible man...living in the sky. Who watches everything you do every minute of every day. And the invisible man has a list of ten specific things he doesn't want you to do. And if you do any of these things, he will send you to a special place, of burning and fire and smoke and torture and anguish for you to live forever, and suffer, and burn, and scream, until the end of time. But he loves you. He loves you. He loves you and he needs money.

I Hate it when people say "life is short." What do you mean life is short? Can you do something longer than life?

Have you ever noticed, in traffic, anybody going slower than you is an idiot, and anyone going faster than you is a maniac!

Ok......... so maybe I went a lil overboard, but that is why we LOVE George Carlin... *sigh* i need more George Carlin DVDs... he so funny... Ok, bed time...

Ooga booga!

Wwwwweeeeeeeee

So far today I have...

Eaten fruitloops,

Read everyones blogs,

Posted on my blog,

Talked to Nic,

Ate ice cream with berries,

Opened my accounting books,

Flossed my teeth,

Found the questions due in accounting,

Talked to my mommy,

Read the accounting questions,

Talked to Heidi,

Came back on the computer,

TALKING TO KENNY WHO I MISS SO INCREDIBLY MUCH ITS NOT FUNNY!!

And posting on my blog again.

Also, feel like my lung is going to plop out onto the desk infront of me. I think I'm going to set a cinderella rule for myself so I start getting some sleep at night... this whole 4 am thing is a lil much. And I really don't want to work anymore... I'd really like to just do some Dez stuff... like go take pictures for a day, spend time with my horses, go play in the sunshine... just chill, ya know?!?! Maybe i'll talk to Candace... anwyays, Dad's at home and being an utter nag, so I'm gunna go downtown and pretend to do stuff there! lol!!

Red Bull after brushing your teeth tastes super icky...

Blah.. here I go again... i already rambled and wrote important things, and then fucking blogger crashed on me, but we'll try again.

So the first time I had a red bull, was with Garfield about a week ago. I was all "i've never had one" and he was like, "here, try it, but you won't like it." so I down some, and the first thing outa my mouth, and I quote "It tastes like Disneyland" well, Garfield claimed I was killing disneyland for him, b/c red bull is so gross blah blah blah, however, I stand by my first statement, it really truely tasted like the lollipops you can get in Disneyland... anwyays, to end this totally random mindless ramble (for the second time) red bull after brushing your teeth is just sick.

And the main reason for this post... I so love my mommy. She phoned today to tell me she was sorry about hte other night, how all her friends were only talking to Tiffany. She just wanted to let me know that she blabbles about me to everyone to, but ppl only ever konw what questions to ask Tiffany. It was really nice b/c I haven't even had the chance to mention how much it hurt me the other day... but she phoned and was all, I tell them that you work full time AND go to school, and about yoru crazy horse who stops at all jumps smells them THEN jumps them, and your crazy pony that I don't get along with who LOVES the xcountry course cause he thinks its the best place in the world and he's such an energizer bunny... I feel way better now, seriously, I love my mom so much, we have the greatest relationship, shes like the best person in the world.

Other news, COLE COMES HOME TODAY!!! I misseded him not being conveniently at my every beck and call.... lol... I geuss I just took for granted how he's always RIGHT htere for me... but he comes home today, AND he bought me presents!! Yay!! He also did everything in Vancouver that I wanted to and didn't... yay Cole!!

Had fun at Steve's last night... we all (Steve, Me, Nic, Chris, Ashley, Adam <-look, reverse alphabetical order) watched office space, I did backflips on the lawn, we danced, we laughed, me and Adam wrestled and had good deep conversation, all in all very fun night.

And for the record, I am SOOOOOOOO beat up right now. I've whined about my tailbone enough, i won't go into that. But seriously, I htink I'm one good smack to the head away from a concussion, I feel lightheaded all the tiem, dizzy, a tap to the head almost knocks me on my ass... the headaches are almost constant... also, i have bruises EVERYWHERE, and I DO"NT bruise easily so to speak. I have a tiny bruise on my elbow, but it hurst like a btich. I havea bruise on my bicep, and one one hte back of my hand... HOW did I get a bruise on the back of my hand?!?! Seriously... *sigh*

Damn... I got all excited, thought we had chocolate sauce in the fridge, so i got a bowl of icecream, went to grab the chocolate sauce.... and its chocolate pudding. Yuck. Oh well, berries nad ice cream is good to...

Ok, I really need to go do h/w, but before I go, April 21st, going away party for me, at my house. Yo'ure welcome to drink but you can't drive if you do, we'll have a bonfire in my backyard, and I have a huge backyard so everyone is welcome. I intend on being fall down drunk, so I can't drive anyone, but if getting a ride is a problem, let me know and I"ll find someone iwth a car you can tag a long with!! Please please come... this may be your only chance to see me fall down drunk ;) lol!! *hugs*

But... I... can't... waht if.... FUCK!

I feel sick, i'm sleepy, emotional, I managed to sleep for 11 hours, but I doubt its enough to make up for 2 weeks of being underslept, I have at least 1 big assignment due tomorrow in accounting, plus a couple smaller ones in marketing, i seriously feel like crap, last night I worked, listened to my mother talk to her friends about how wonderful my sister is, came home posted about Peter Peter, passed out, I woke up only 15 minutes ago, and have to leave for work in 45 mins...

I FUCKING HATE THIS!!!!

Somebody make me healthy.... or make me puke in the middle of the server aisle so I can just go home...

My only happy things are, I know for sure I work with Ashley, maybe Steve, Garfields being nice again and he works tonight (however that can change at a moments notice), and I have all tuesday to accomplish stuff relaxdo h/w... wait.. FUCK! I work.... I HATE DENNYS!!!! I should phone in sick right now, except, I somehow, somewehre developed a conscious.... he's underdeveloped believe you me, but he deffinetly picks the wrong time to chime in when he does. Fucker.

Peter Peter

Peter Peter Pumpkin Eater,
Had a wife and couldn't keep her.
So he put her in a pumpkin shell,
and there he kept her very well.

Peter Peter had another,
but he didn't love her.
Till he learned to read and spell,
then he loved her very well.

HA!! You all thought I was crazy, but i TOLD you there was more to the Peter Peter Nursery Rhyme...

Now have to add the cinderella Joke...

Cinderella wants to go to the ball, but her wicked stepmother won't let her.
As Cinderella sits crying in the garden, her fairy godmother appears, and promised to provide Cinderella with everything she needs to go to the ball, but only on two conditions "First, you must wear a diaphragm." Cinderella agrees.
"What's the second condition?"
"You must be home by 2:00 a.m. Any later, and your diaphragm will turn into a pumpkin."
Cinderella agrees to be home by 2:00 a.m. The appointed hour comes and goes, and Cinderella doesn't show up. Finally, at 5:00 a.m. Cinderella shows up, looking love struck and very satisfied. "Where have you been?" demands the Fairy Godmother. "Your diaphragm was supposed to turn into a pumpkin three hours ago!!!" " I met a prince, Fairy Godmother. He took care of everything."
The Fairy Godmother stated, "I know of no prince with that kind of power! Tell me his name!" Cinderella replied, I can't remember, exactly... Peter, Peter, something or other..."

The Keeper of Your Sanity

Like playful fireflies dancing in the night
Two lovers start a journey of love and heartache.
Just as a flame burns upon a candle,
Their love burns deep and true.
But with the new year comes new hardship
Drowning in sorrow the confusion suffocates.
And without knowing why it all ends.
The body numbs the world grows dark,
Even the knife slicing skin brings no pain.
But the sun rises once again as it does everyday,
And in that there is some comfort.
Sometimes we must wholly lose ourselves to truely know ourselves.
And though I find myself still in love I thank you.
You taught me to live, to love, to relax,
You taught me pain and regret.
Unlike the melting winter my love remains
But like a river the tears will one day dry.
Immeresed in life I walk down the path that I create,
Cocooned with memories, hope, strength.
Cross it if you have the need, you shall always be welcomed.
Keep a piece of the heart you touched so deep,
For my soul shall never be complete.
And with me a piece of your sanity I shall guard.
I give you back your soul that I care for so much.
Find yourself, banish your demons.
I will love you forever.

Good morning to...

Good morning to Nic, who probably upon awaking before doing anything went to his computer which informed him that I had posted on my blog.

To Steve who even tho being exausted after work, couldn't sleep anyways and went on the computer.

To Cole who is reading this from some Random Vancouver computer.

To Chris who has no life! :P, j/k.

To Jen S, who SHOULD be paying attention in class...

To Jen G, who apparently reads the blogs everymorning while eating a cheerio for her super brain power!

To Becca who is probably JUST leaving the house now even tho she has to be at work in 8 minutes.

To Mel, b/c I miss you so much!

To Jeremy, you better be htinking of me during sex :P

And to everyone else I couldn't think of something quirky to say to, or b/c i'm unaware you read my blog on a regular basis.

Well... tonight was alright. Made like $30, but only sold like $360 anyways. However, i'd like to point out that my Tip out owed tonight was $6.66 ..... see... paying the cooks s/a's and hosts is like giving the devil himself money. Was funny tho, started my shift, and was like WOO HOO!! I love late night... man this is awesome, if only the whole sleep thing while going to school didn't mess me up so bad, why did I hate it, I got some pretty kick ass tips, I like the slackness of late night, I love the people who work weekend latenight... and then not 2 hours into my shift some jerk off makes some proposition something along hte lines of "I'd like to get between your thighs" right... thats why I hate late night... Then some assholes at tbl 17... nothing was good enough, not enough coffee, not enough HBs, blah blah blah, wha wha wha, stupid remarks... and then one of them decides to ask for my number, and when I "gracefully" declined, decides to give me his instead... fucking freak, all you did was piss me off all night, complain, then you wouldn't pay me so I could go home, and now you want me to CALL YOU?!?!? Were your parents siblings by chance? Idiot. Also, you're drunk, and I am wearing an unflattering horribly ugly Denny's uniform, am working graveyards (which says to me, I'm a single mother crack victim who has to work 2 jobs to support her kid and habit), and I am CLEARLY pretending to be someone I'm not.... am I really one night stand material, let alone dating material? A first impression while I'm working graveyards would clearly show that that is a negative. Freaks.

Wow... some strands of hair are actually split into 4 or 5 peices... not good.

So I bought a $150 flash for my camera today!! Very cool, gunna take some practice and such, I'll see later today how well it works/how well my guessing on how to use it was. Went to take pictures of my mom riding... sat in the freezing cold for 2 hours... decided on a quick coffee (for dad) green tea (for Dez) run, since mom wasn't going to be up for a while... apparently she started riding before my car had gotten outa the driveway, and by the time i'd gotten back she had finishd... *grumble grumble* oh well, I think my mom was just happy I was there, and was willing to work graveyards just to see her.

Ack...2 of my cuticles are now bleeding, and 2 are already damaged... that means 40% of my cuticles aren't so great right nowish.

We'll see when I wake up if I have a black/swollen eye. Its all messed up again, all started with getting hot sauce in it, but flushing it didn't help, I've put SO much Visine in it, i've taken off all the makeup with proper eyemakeup remover, and now its slightly swollen and slightly discoloured, which could mean black eye upon awaking... *sigh* hopefully "fixed" it enough to prevent that, ro i'm NOT comming into work.

Randomness, i'm also super prone to infection... I cut myself shaving the other day, not a big deal, today, its swollen maybe 1/2 a cm out of my leg. Its yellow, its oozing puss. Same with taht scrape I got from crazy carpeting... ya, tahts JSUT about healed now, b/c it was all infected. My ear is infected again, it was squirting puss, quite gross. So now I"m going to start drinking Chamomile tea everyday before bed in hopes it helps prevent infection, and plus the relaxation might help me sleep a dreamless sleep. Blah.

Whoa... attention span wandering... i actually stopped typing for 4 minutes w/o opening another screen or leaving this chair... I think that signifies a need for sleep.... well for a couple hours anywyas...

Feeling sick, and have terrible stabbing headache.